The clock is ticking, my dear!

Assalamualaikum.
Ahh-ah-ah-ah- - -
I've never felt this before. The feeling of getting unprepared with everything that's coming. Can you imagine this.  It left few more months to go for SPM and I still couldn't see what did I actually have been struggling for. Even me, myself did not see any effort that I'm putting out to get the best for the results. It's like I know it's getting near day by day and I know if I did not start now, my future is a ruin. But I just can't concentrate. Seeing people getting serious day by day, worrying about SPM. They brings books to everywhere but I didn't. I am too relax and this is definetely not right! Seriously, I've always wanted to get a higher marks than my friends in every subject but I failed. There's not even one subject that I can compare with them. And there comes the feeling where I will think that my friend think of me as bodoh. Well I know they're not. But do you know it's very uncomfortable to be with a friend who always spent time with you doing stupid things and useless things, but they end out getting a better result than you. To me, it's very uncomfortable. It's shameful okay! :( Anyway, right now I just hope that I will do the best of me for Mid-Year exams so that I will feel comfortable with myself and people around me.

Till the next post.

Warmest regards,
                 Haiqa